Oh My Gawd, How can he pass away!

To the guy who brought Avenged Sevenfold together,
who wrote almost all of their songs,
who was the pillar of strength of Avenged Sevenfold,
and the guy who is an idol to other drummers out there.

James Sullivan, the drummer for Orange County, California based rock band Avenged Sevenfold and better known to his fans as "The Rev," was found dead in his home yesterday (December 28th.) A local examination claims that he passed away from natural causes. His bandmates from Avenged Sevenfold has posted the following message online:
"It is with great sadness and heavy hearts that we tell you of the passing today of Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan. Jimmy was not only one of the world's best drummers, but more importantly he was our best friend and brother. Our thoughts and prayers go out to Jimmy's family and we hope that you will respect their privacy during this difficult time.

Though i am not a big fan of him, or his tattoos. Still, he is the reason why im in love with Avenged Sevenfold.
Without him, it just wont be the same again.

How do you entertain 15 friends at a go
Ever got stuck in between? and not able to figure anything out
No solutions!
Problems after problems.

Ends up feeling guilty for everything that didnt go well.
But what can i do? im a human being, there's only 1 me
i cant split myself!

SO what!,im hot tempered.. it takes after you also.
Now, you're saying letting me go overseas cost alot of money after i spend so much time
going thru applications for schools.

Diu diu diu diu diu, damn fucking angry!

I just cant put 1 and 1 together
* Not mathematically of course*
I meant it in a way that things that i see in one situation to another,
when both goes together, it just doesnt make sense.

At the point where, so called making big decisions to life
which road to take, what to choose, did i choose the right things.
I think i did choose right and i consider myself to be making decisions
that are worth making.

When everyting goes wrong, i know there's still people who care bout me at least. :)

I give up-.-
blogging aint fun at all
it's plain boring...........
cause half my life is boring as usual

All that i do is wake up for work, go home, sleep or hang around.
Vexed, frustrated and pissed about my study plans, but what can i do?

Slowly,im beginning to realize that everything has somehow and somewhat related to $$$$
whats happens if you're poor, everyone look down on you.
This world is realistic! face it! Money is more important than face issues!

I want my clubbin life back!
MUMMY PLEASE!
Let me club! Will die sooner or later la!

Going overseas meaning my parents are gonna have to invest a hugh amount of money on me.

I am feeling stressed out because i seriously dunno what im doing and maybe some may say that im crazy or keep calling me sohai-.-
This is the way it is, i just feel that i always wanted to try studying overseas and choosing to go might be because of her but still my studies is still more important.

I dun deny the fact that i go because she is doing so, but so what?
If i dun study well enough and have a better future, i rather she be with someone else.

After so many months, still so stress out by everything and the most important point is that
I STILL HAVENT GOT ANYTHING DONE YET! :S

Now i start to realize that money is indeed hard to come by.
Working part time, earning 8 bucks an hour.
i barely have enough money to use at the end of the month :(

I admit im a spendthrift, but i slowing learning to save
keep my hands off branded stuff for quite some time already -.-
but still there's this urge to buy buy and buy.

argh! please learn to save money and never end up like me lol
im a bad example * so kids dun learn anything from me please for allah's sake *