Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Oh My Gawd, How can he pass away!

To the guy who brought Avenged Sevenfold together,
who wrote almost all of their songs,
who was the pillar of strength of Avenged Sevenfold,
and the guy who is an idol to other drummers out there.






James Sullivan, the drummer for Orange County, California based rock band Avenged Sevenfold and better known to his fans as "The Rev," was found dead in his home yesterday (December 28th.) A local examination claims that he passed away from natural causes. His bandmates from Avenged Sevenfold has posted the following message online:
"It is with great sadness and heavy hearts that we tell you of the passing today of Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan. Jimmy was not only one of the world's best drummers, but more importantly he was our best friend and brother. Our thoughts and prayers go out to Jimmy's family and we hope that you will respect their privacy during this difficult time.

Though i am not a big fan of him, or his tattoos. Still, he is the reason why im in love with Avenged Sevenfold.
Without him, it just wont be the same again.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

How do you entertain 15 friends at a go
Ever got stuck in between? and not able to figure anything out
No solutions!
Problems after problems.

Ends up feeling guilty for everything that didnt go well.
But what can i do? im a human being, there's only 1 me
i cant split myself!
SO what!,im hot tempered.. it takes after you also.
Now, you're saying letting me go overseas cost alot of money after i spend so much time
going thru applications for schools.

Diu diu diu diu diu, damn fucking angry!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I just cant put 1 and 1 together
* Not mathematically of course*
I meant it in a way that things that i see in one situation to another,
when both goes together, it just doesnt make sense.

At the point where, so called making big decisions to life
which road to take, what to choose, did i choose the right things.
I think i did choose right and i consider myself to be making decisions
that are worth making.

When everyting goes wrong, i know there's still people who care bout me at least. :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I give up-.-
blogging aint fun at all
it's plain boring...........
cause half my life is boring as usual

All that i do is wake up for work, go home, sleep or hang around.
Vexed, frustrated and pissed about my study plans, but what can i do?

Slowly,im beginning to realize that everything has somehow and somewhat related to $$$$
whats happens if you're poor, everyone look down on you.
This world is realistic! face it! Money is more important than face issues!

I want my clubbin life back!
MUMMY PLEASE!
Let me club! Will die sooner or later la!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Going overseas meaning my parents are gonna have to invest a hugh amount of money on me.

I am feeling stressed out because i seriously dunno what im doing and maybe some may say that im crazy or keep calling me sohai-.-
This is the way it is, i just feel that i always wanted to try studying overseas and choosing to go might be because of her but still my studies is still more important.

I dun deny the fact that i go because she is doing so, but so what?
If i dun study well enough and have a better future, i rather she be with someone else.

After so many months, still so stress out by everything and the most important point is that
I STILL HAVENT GOT ANYTHING DONE YET! :S

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Now i start to realize that money is indeed hard to come by.
Working part time, earning 8 bucks an hour.
i barely have enough money to use at the end of the month :(

I admit im a spendthrift, but i slowing learning to save
keep my hands off branded stuff for quite some time already -.-
but still there's this urge to buy buy and buy.

argh! please learn to save money and never end up like me lol
im a bad example * so kids dun learn anything from me please for allah's sake *

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Sometimes when you look at people who are quarreling
it makes you wonder whether whose right or wrong
or sometimes both just have their own ideas of expressing themselves.

When both are the people you know
you feel stuck in the middle of nowhere
not knowing what to do, who to help or what to say sometimes

The utter feeling of feeling totally hopeless...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

If you feel called to share a message, it's because there are people in the world who are waiting to hear it.
~Michael Port

There Is a Tree

There is a tree whose roots sink deeply into the very core of the earth. Its branches soar up through the sky and out into the universe. Its trunk is so wide, no one really knows where one side begins or the other one ends. On that tree, there are so many leaves that, from far away, they seem to blend together as one.

But, up close, each leaf looks completely separate. Because of this, most leaves overlook the fact that their stems are attached to small branches, which give way to all the other branches and ultimately connect to every other leaf on the tree. Most leaves forget this connection and feel separate and alone.

When it rains, the leaves think they must accumulate more drops on them than the others, or they might die of thirst. So they compete with each other for the limited raindrops, forgetting that they all share the same roots, which absorb the water when it moistens the earth.

When the sun comes out, the leaves are again worried, this time because they may not get enough light. When they see other leaves getting more sunlight than themselves, they feel resentful and envious, forgetting that when the sun shines on any one of them, the warmth and energy strengthens them all.

Some leaves don't remember that they are part of a tree until they fall to the ground. But from the ground looking up, they can plainly see that all the leaves are growing from the same tree. Once they remember, they transform into nourishing soil and continue on as a different part of the tree.

Some leaves, on the other hand, remember before they fall from the tree. When it rains, these leaves relax and trust, knowing that the water will moisten the soil below, and the roots of the great tree will absorb it, providing plenty of water for each leaf.

When the sun comes out, the leaves bask in its warmth. When they see other leaves getting more sunlight, they are delighted, knowing that they all benefit from each other's success.

But the most amazing thing is that when one leaf remembers, sometimes other leaves notice. And then, slowly, they begin to remember, too. And before you know it, on a tree whose roots sink deeply into the core of the earth with branches that reach all the way out into the universe, there are leaves that, even up close, don't seem so separate.



What is the tree? Your God, Family, Friendship

Who are the leaves? All of us

Hope we are the leaf that remembers, and shares this message to any other leaves that have been waiting to hear it. You may not know how this simple story will changes their life.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

My " Wonders"

I wonder what's my future gonna be like?
Pilot? lol no way.. business man? heck! as long as i make lots of money

and as i wonder, who will i date or marry?
having doubts on myself atm.

and i wondered, will i drive my mini or integra at least?
i consoled mysef and said yeah i would-.-

then i wondered, Friends?
will we stay forever this way? or it'll get worst or better

and yet i wondered again, Why i feel like im in a mess now
I got no ideas about how im gonna plan out my future, and just taking each day as it goes by.
everything seem so heavy to me, i just cant take the load off.
HELP!

Saturday, November 14, 2009



Well, the car i always wanted * sorry to the dude who owns this pic, i borrowed it*

Mitsubishi Evolution 9
So the cost for one now is around Rm 160,000
Gosh!, i would give up everything to own this car except giving up her.

Not just me, i bet 90% of guys who love cars would go for this car.
A sedan with a turbocharged engine, 4 door, 2 recaro racing seats, it can sit 6 ppl at most
i know cos i tried it in my uncle's evo
What else, its fantastic, beats driving a waja and making it look like an evo


So i guess things happen as it happens
Cant really change a thing bout it
but just have to learn to accept it

For many reasons, i just tried to lie to myself
making myself believe that, walking away...
may just be the best solution for now

I didnt consider myself a failure
just too much confidence
and i fell hard, thats all

Malaizai and the rest of the gang always said " it's good to be in my place"
i can tell you, its not!-.-
Why would anyone wanna be in my place, i aint rich, or handsome or whatever......
But i got a set of nice parents who bore a gorgeous me LOL....
what else you envy, when i dun even realize that there's something bout me to envy about

CAN SOMEBODY POINT IT OUT, SO THAT I KNOW?

Friday, November 13, 2009

Ok! la! , i know i'm hot tempered sometimes.
But then, compare me to others i think im ok already lor!

Prove me wrong, i bet everyone cant stand to lose.. its in our nature, dun deny it please
if you insist to let ppl win at all times and not give a dman shit bout it, whats the point?
People starts to step on you, thinking that you're just a pushover.

Im sorry, i may be small size due to the way i was born or whatever crap.
try bullying me, i'll kill you i swear! to allah, buddha, jesus, and whatever else gods are there.

WHY!!! is everyone so into money, status and fame.
So what you drive a E class or a 6 series bmw.. does it give you the right to lansi others?
Maybe so, but i bet you're only good on the outside and fucked up on the inside.

So what my parents dun drive big cars and live in a super big house. At the very least, they're not in debt or owe any people anything and we live a freaking good life compared to some. My parents money are invested on me and my brother * we are the ferraris, our expenses are high*

So those who are just plain rich and spending money "wisely"... go to hell please.....
You all are just plain stupid to spend money that way rather den use it on something more meaningful.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Streamyx you officially sucks

Lousy internet services, you expect me to pay you stupid m***** so much money per month for a internet speed of less den 1.5bytes per sec? ASSHOLES! do your job la

I paid for the 100 mbps one and you gimme 1kbps meh! stupid assholes, want money dun wan work...
dun stay in malaysia den, not the country for you.. you shld just Effing fly off! go fly kite!

Life without internet sucks at night if you're not clubbing, you cant youtube, no facebook, no online movies, songs downloading, msn and webcam! my gawd how to survive the night la!....

PLEASE! make my internet smoother at least and stop dc-ing for once you stupid idiots who work at night
or sleeping on the job. i just dun give a damn shit, i only want my internet to be better!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Nice or not, of course not!

The utter feeling of trying to be nice and get misunderstood for.
Thats what's gonna happen when you try too hard to amend something you had done
no shld be what i done few weeks ago.

Maybe i got a bad temper and get angry easily but den it doesn't mean im a fucking bad person rite?
So i already tried and tried to control myself from letting go at some point and say things that i'll regret saying.

But for one of my best friend to say me like that, what i can say is " you took it as a joke and i didnt"
I just didnt feel good, and i can tell you i was only trying to be nice and nothing else.
So, just stop trying to assume anything before things get worst and others get the wrong idea.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Well, here we go again saturday once again...
Had a hard day at work on a rainy day.

It rained so heavily that my mum didnt even allowed me to drive out of the house-.-
and there goes sakai calling me every 25 seconds and asked

Sakai " Oi ! Yan! Cb la!, where you!

I replied : On the way la * but i was still at home using pc* hahaha

Sakai : Cb Yan, later you pick me up sure kena me diao!

See la i got this kind of friend want me to drive during a heavy downpour, want me die only la!
Where's your heart dude? rushing me on a rainy day lol.

Futsal-ed with Prem, Yut, Sakai, Malaizai and Chu Jun.
It was supposed to be fun but ended up playing with ppl who showed us attitude and having the impression that we got no money to be playing futsal with them-.-

This world and society is just full of drama, on the way home i saw this girl in a pink tube top *pretty lei lol* crying on the roadside EXACTLY LIKE IN A DRAMA SHOW LA WALAO!

Seriously, which bastard leaves their girlfriend crying on the roadside on a rainy day.
Screw you dudes! be a gentleman pleaseand just apologize be it your fault or not your fault.

Sorry isnt that hard to say.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Its a FRIDAY!

Woke up effing early to get to Spore to collect my pass. Drove to Mlz's place and had to drag him out of bed. Had Macdonalds pancakes for breakfast,omg HASHBROWN TASTE AWESOME!!!!

So i parked my car at cs for the whole day and it cost me 20 ringgit just for the parking fee.

Apologies to Gerald for wasting your time in Singapore and not letting you attend class. Im truly not sorry cos i bet you didnt wanna attend also, no need lie bout it! lol...

Came back to Cs in the afternoon, met up with prem and kian for a movie. IT WAS HILARIOUS MAN! Poker Man or Poker something la, forget the movie name already-.-....

Well after the movie, some idiot suggested ikan bakar for dinner. So we went, got stuck in a 40 minutes jam and it was expensive la. THANK YOU SAKAI FOR THE DINNER.

Blogging is tiring... :/

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Blogging behind times

Nice lei

Civic Type R FD2

But can u imagine a perfectly nice car like this crash into a effing tree that stoood on the side of a road.
I wonder how's the driver since i saw the car was wrapped around the tree.
Take a bit of sympathy on the tree please, i bet it hurts
Aww.. there goes RM198,000 for this type R. My gawd, if i was given a car like that, i would treat it
with tender loving care la.

Speeding is absoulutely what im gonna do, cutting ppl lanes and racing with those sohai kia who mods protons into evos-.-

But i would never ever gonna crash into a tree. *Praying hard* only if i had this car.

Sucks la, nothing to blog bout also.Simple boring life as usual.

Wake up, get to work, looking and staring at branded bags for a whole 10 hours a day, getting off work,
lepak around town, go home for dinner, facebook a while. SLEEP!

So goodnight =)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Sunday morning and its boring

Dull repetative life.
Woke up early attended uncle's wedding at kota tinggit, i think it was a waste of time la. * no offense*
But had quite a fun time playing with my little cousins. DAMN CUTE LA! the eyes so big lol...
Had to go for badminton training around 2 but i went late as usual.
went down to cs to have a little chat with malaizai and apologize to tingting in person.
"it was that hard to say sorry" wasnt easy ok!

Traning was boring as usual with boontong talking cock all the way, and somehow i got brainwash into taking part in the under 23 badminton competition.
*Fingers all crossed that at least let me thru a few rounds before losing*

Being envious of ppl with lifes that are wonderful as you see them to be. And it makes you think why arent u in that person shoe.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

The Thousand words that fill a picture

Saturday, seemed like alot of things were gonna to be done
wake up, went to work
and as usual, ZHI EN WAS LATE AGAIN :P

Rush rush rush, many bags to clear and to be done...
finished my work at around 5, but supposed to go to the workshop to tune the car
which I DIDNT lol * i was lazy ma*

Met up with Prem and Sakai at GA, had a little walk at the pasar malam
OMG i sua ku la, i seriosuly damn long never go this kind of place.
i just didnt fit in lol.

And the guy with the fat ass called " Malaizai aka Mango Chan"
:) "oi mana you all! come fetch me at cs la, futsal time"

Fucking asshole as usual wasted lot of my time fetching him here and there
and waiting for him here and there-.-

Played football. but den aiya tempers flew, attitudes shown
Make it totally moodless.stupid rite cant we just enjoy something together.


Whats worst to come. Fetching Prem Sakai Malaizai Kian and Tingting home...
WASEH MALAYSIANS AH REALLY DISGRACE LA!
we were around angsana area, this fucking indian dunno he drunk, high on drugs, or dunno drive car or on purpose. WTF, bang me once in the ass and den accelerate to bang me the second time.

But what to do, proton nia, cant do much to my little red baby.. STUPID LOSER IM GONNA FIND YOUR HOUSE AND KILL YOU, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! PUSSY!
What an ass la! bang and ran... stupid la think i dunno look at number plate thinking i dunno read meh!

Lol im sorry tingting, i know i say you daisai and whatever shit, and i scolded you
SORRY LA, i dunno how to apologize and i find it hard to say sorry face to face.
i scold you cos i angry ma, cannot control my temper haha...
Fucked up saturday, i know this doenst have a thousand words. but im just making the title look interesting.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Simply put it this way

23rd Oct, Dads Birthday,
Has a simple dinner with him not much of a celebration

Work was fine..
caught prem lunching with a lenglui when i was having my lucnh as well,

well, this chanel wallet is amazing.
Nice rite? price around 8k Ringgit

Things get better if you look at greener pasture
why stay at a place when there are many great places to go

like my friend said once said " cant get the pretty one? get the other prettier one"

But for now, life kinda sucks...

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Just another wednesday passes by,
Boring as it seems, i did quite a few things today... Went to Spore to renew my pass and all those crap documents and stuff.

Effing long journey to and back, damn im tired la.. working is tiring, everything is tiring

Nothing special took place today.
NOTHING NEW ! NOTHING FUN ! NOTHING EXCITING !

Went to Mcdonalds to yumcha with prem, mango and kian..
and guess wad 4 guys talk about once they sat down.
1. Girls
2.Cars
3.Football

Boring rite!
tata~

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Since i last blog, like a few years ago

BORINGGGGGGGGGGGG DAY!

As usual time flies at work, busy day...
when everything was like rush rush rush for this and that...
datelines to meet...


But what made my day was actually what my mum said,
she was like  boy ah " see malaizai in office wear, so handsome and cute la..."
i was like -.-" YOU SERIOUS OR NOT! of all people Malaizai, when she

didnt even said her own son was handsome or whatever ...
I felt effing jealous la. and i know he got a big ass to boast abt that i dont-.-


*i didnt upload his pic, cos internet is fucking slow as usual.


. . . . .  as the day went,


While watching tv and i saw this program show sepang stuff. Racing cars and stuff * for boys only*
Girls siam, go do your manicure or whatever-cure and your spa or high tea sessions.


Lyy goes : Eh miiiiii ah, i stdy in spore, you buy me an integra la
Mum goes : Erm... buy you can la, i take full loan u support the car yourself.
Lyy face goes : -.-"

and i said : wth la, one integra only...
and i was saying kanny driving a evo9, ah lai driving a subaru v9 sti and i want integra only ma.

Her final sentence : you got money? no money dun come talk to me

                             and she added, DUN DISTURB ME WATCH MY KOREAN DRAMA LA

walao whats the world coming to, ask for a car also so hard
but den i can imagine her face if i tell her i want get married when she is watching drama.


Hahahaha, actualy i translate to english la. she spoke in chinese :)